Saturday, May 3, 2014

real deal

it used to be easier to pretend
just fake a smile
i'm fine
and once is enough

it's constant now
oh i'm so happy so hilarious i've got so many things to say to you add a smiley another one another one another one another one
think of what to say to look happy
cannot care about myself or how i really feel
have to care about you and what you want
have to keep you happy

oh well at least i don't have to lie that i'm fine anymore

cause you don't really care though do you


  1. I understand you so well... believe me. Lots of your thoughts are similar to mine, even feelings about some things. Might sound like bullshit from anonymous person who's commenting,but... I always liked your blogs, I don't know if its right to say "a fan", but I am. When looking at your profile picture, and then reading your blog here,or on the other page (you know which) I always think- such a pretty and intelligent girl,but why is she so unhappy and lost? Then I find some darkness behind, some unwritten pain and I know what's happening. You know, I wish you all the best,and may all your wishes come true, from all my heart,honestly, because you deserve to be happy.
    Respectfully, Winter_Witch

    1. I don't know what to say.. I love you :|
      For real, thank you.. sometimes the only thing that I need is to be understood and you seem to really do.

  2. It alright. I just gone through same hard times, and still going sometimes. If you ever need someone to talk to, you know where to find me